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Tuesday, May 27th, 2008
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3:44a - my life as an empty nester :: I don't like living alone
Many thanks and much gratitude to those who commented on my last two entries, those dealing with the death of my beloved Max. The sympathy and kind words were much needed and much appreciated. I do want to reply to each of you individually, but now that I'm finally ready to deal, I'm in a minor time crunch, aka I need to get back to bed now and tomorrow (later this morning?) is my regularly scheduled head shrinkage plus assorted errands. So anyway, soon.
This is the first time since (counts on fingers) 1980 that I haven't shared space with cats. It's - weird.
I'm doing pretty well in general, except for those random moments when I think I see Max out of the corner of my eye - or expect to see him in some particular situation, And occasionally I'll be distracted and momentarily forget he's gone, then get a little gut punch when I remember. Like, earlier this evening, I had a "need kitty cuddles, gonna go find Max now" moment almost simultaneously with remembering. It's given me a new ... appreciation? for the term cognitive dissonance. Wow.
Current plans are to do a thorough housecleaning and make a stab at decluttering as well, then start checking the shelters for adoptables. I'm hoping for a pair of youngish males, maybe brothers, to come live with me. Of course, I'll probably melt for every cat in the place and try to take them all home with me. And if it's a mixed shelter, all the dogs and bunnies and ferrets and guinea pigs and etc etc etc. I've never had a snake or a lizard, and it's been ages since I've had fish or birds....
Er, yeah. Animal lover here. Missing the fur (and feathers and scales and-) rather badly right now. And at the pace I'm setting for my housecleaning so far, I'll be lucky to be done by this time next year. *sigh* No, my pace will pick up once the initial forays start to show (inspirational) results.
Okay, bed time. Until later...
cross-posted etc etc
current mood:  pensive
current music: fan motors (comment on this)
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